archive-za.com » ZA » H » HELENBRAIN.CO.ZA

Total: 421

Choose link from "Titles, links and description words view":

Or switch to "Titles and links view".
  • helen brain - dying and caring
    I needed help nursing him so I could focus on being his wife again it became much much easier If I could go back fifteen months to the last six weeks of Luke s life I d tell myself to take more time To go out for a massage once a week to exercise until I d worked up a sweat at least once a day to pay someone to do the bathing emptying bags cooking meals and worrying about whether or not he s eating them I d recognise that caring for myself is my first duty because it allows me to make sure that the time I do spend with him is top quality me at my best But I got caught up in the terror of losing him How can I spend any time away from you if we only have a short time left together It s so hard caring for the dying Next blog entry Comments Gill on 11 August 10 OH WOW I went through this with my Mom I can SO RELATE to all of this Like srj I send love and hugs to anyone in this situation now srj on 10 August

    Original URL path: http://helenbrain.co.za/blog_view.php?id=472 (2016-04-24)
    Open archived version from archive

  • helen brain - Gym Bunny
    has to do with attitude I used to feel insecure and stoic about the gym and I reckon I gave off bad vibes But because I decided to have fun and try new stuff and fail if necessary who cares and to allow myself to leave if I wanted to I started to laugh and enjoy myself Falling off the huge blue ball hilarious not embarrassing Being taught by a muscle bound enigmatic non smiler just seemed like a fun change from my friends He told me to do something too difficult sorry I said I m fifty next month I m not doing anything I don t want to And the roof didn t fall in and an eagle eyed iron fisted nun didn t call an army of supernatural beings to punish me And I stopped feeling like a fat teenager and felt like a grown up And the other gym members have been nice too I don t feel so lonely now If I laugh then there are lots of people to laugh too If I skulk I skulk alone Who would have thought I would decide I actually liked it Huh Next blog entry Comments Savyra on 13 September 10 Sheesh I am most majorly impressed Jill on 12 August 10 Wow I m very impressed Maybe even enough to go to the gym This is a wonderful turn of events Helen Thanks for posting And I hate the blue ball Last time I was in a class a letter carrier woman spent the whole hour lying horizontally on it by clenching her abs the perfect plank I think she lifted weights while she was up there and at the very end the instructor used her as a shelf to store all the gear until next

    Original URL path: http://helenbrain.co.za/blog_view.php?id=470 (2016-04-24)
    Open archived version from archive

  • helen brain - Some pictures
    Next blog entry Comments patty on 05 August 10 fabulous hilarious and very clever srj on 05 August 10 Ahah They re here now Love them all There was a bit in the UK press yesterday saying that the Italians have taken the Pope to heart despite his being a German because he effortlessly understands the fundamental need to dress in style S Ferreira on 04 August 10 Helen I

    Original URL path: http://helenbrain.co.za/blog_view.php?id=471 (2016-04-24)
    Open archived version from archive

  • helen brain - Children of God book launch
    was very warm and loving so I stayed It was a long launch two hours of it and the Arch was very sweet and said lovely things about Luke stuff that I had forgotten in the ghastliness of the last six months we had together Luke insisted when they chose the stories and the way they would be illustrated that men and women were shown as equal before God as any depiction of men as superior to women was a license for men to be physically abusive towards their partners I remembered again how morally courageous Luke was and I realised that there was an us that people perceived of us as a couple that has survived that awful fracturing that was so heart breaking Then the stupid MC cocked up again a publisher asked the Arch What made you decide to write this book and he said Luke Stubbs told me to so I did and the MC said he s a powerful man this Luke Stubbs Anyway today I saw the pretty face of the church the appealing warm kindhearted uplifting face and for a moment I forgot the corruption and wrangling and ugliness I m still glad I m not part of it though But I do like Archbishop Tutu He took my hand and kissed it and said you cared for him beautifully right to the end and it soothed some of the pain of it all Next blog entry Comments Grace on 02 August 10 I am sure the MC will feel terrible once someone whispers the facts in his ear You are an inspiration Helen you are so very truthful and honest and I say that without even knowing you personally just through your blog I have read your blog for quite some time

    Original URL path: http://helenbrain.co.za/blog_view.php?id=469 (2016-04-24)
    Open archived version from archive

  • helen brain - still sick
    makes me conflicted It feels wrong to be moving on away from him I wish he was here to receive the accolades he worked so hard on this Bible and the Arch only agreed to do it because he had a relationship with Luke already from when we worked in his diocese Anyway Luke s father and stepmother will be there tomorrow which will be a big relief But I

    Original URL path: http://helenbrain.co.za/blog_view.php?id=468 (2016-04-24)
    Open archived version from archive

  • helen brain - sick
    issues thoroughly I don t think it s coincidence that I got sick on the anniversary of Luke s death A couple of years ago I went to see a movie about an Irish Catholic priest who was a paedophile It was a documentary interviewing both him and his victims as well as his bishops and other superiors There were four people in the cinema we were scattered around the room seated as far apart as possible And all of us wept throughout that film Anyway that night I got out of the blue the most horrendous cystitis I was in agony my urine was full of blood and Luke had to take me to the hospital in the middle of the night Here s the interesting thing I hadn t had bloody urine since my brother molested me forty years earlier I learned from that that my body carries stress and if I can work out what it is and deal with it I m healthier So I miss Luke He was my best friend for nearly thirty years And more than that there s a deeper missing of my brother who I adored After he started molesting me he changed towards me became cold and angry and abrupt And I was grief stricken about it I think my body is reacting to the men I love and lose Next blog entry Comments Lindsay on 27 July 10 Very thought provoking and I suspect has deep truths that I need to grapple with in terms of my own life Thank you for sharing this srj on 26 July 10 PS and of course I meant to say Hope you are now feeling much better S x srj on 26 July 10 It makes total sense to me Indeed it

    Original URL path: http://helenbrain.co.za/blog_view.php?id=467 (2016-04-24)
    Open archived version from archive

  • helen brain - Anniversary
    one could hear me and scream and howl And now after nearly two years of grieving I feel as though the worst is over I ve made a new life and while I honour his memory and remember him with love I like my new life and I m happy It s been a long cold winter and spring has come I feel guilty I should still be crying every day depressed and bleak But there s new life and joy that s grown out of the sadness and I think he would be happy to see us beginning to thrive again I m making him a series of mosaics on wood in old Bashew cooldrink crates Next blog entry Comments Gill on 22 July 10 Sending squillions of hugs sharrie on 21 July 10 Love and loads of hugs I think you are doing a great job of getting on with your life isn t that what Luke would have wanted Jen on 21 July 10 It s very hard to believe that it is a year You don t need to feel guilty about not being in mood of deep darkness and you don t need to feel

    Original URL path: http://helenbrain.co.za/blog_view.php?id=466 (2016-04-24)
    Open archived version from archive

  • helen brain - 16 days of activism - day 9
    the weighted stick thing and squatted and clenched and stepped while the instructor a manly colossus who looked like a statue of Chaka walked among us petty women while we peeped about to earn ourselves dishonorable graves checking his abs and his huge biceps all gleaming brown in his cut off black vest and admired his legs which are longer from knee to ankle than my entire leg I felt like a grandmother accidentally incorporated into an impi of nubile maidens training for the reed dance Thank God we could keep our shirts and bras on It was quite fun though He was rather nice to look at and a jolly fellow quite unlike the mirthless one I only did half an hour as that is my limit I am going to be very old in a few years time and I d like to reach the golden years without having a stroke or hartaanval Enjoying the gym is open to all I see Even fat middle aged widows who don t like exerting themselves can have fun Just say no As in I m sorry but I m 50 years old in 6 weeks time and if I don

    Original URL path: http://helenbrain.co.za/blog_view.php?id=465 (2016-04-24)
    Open archived version from archive



  •